Random

I was planning to write like everyday since I’ve nothing to work on. But there goes my plan.  Actually theres a lot to tell but those stories were long gone. It has been like what, a year since I last posted. Now i'm in my second year of degree life. Yet, nothing turns out to a complete fiasco. I’m happy. And i'm so into my life now. Yeah, problems gonna hit you cause you’re human. You can’t run away from this. But theres always some ways to figure it out. How to solve, how to decide, how to overcome and how to forget. And this is the second post for today haha too excited. I’m getting there peeps. I should come up with a thing. I can’t simply appear out of a sudden and have no idea on what to write. But fuck you, this is my blog by the way. 

Till then, cheerio.

Soon

I vow to help you love life

To always hold you with tenderness

To have the patience that love demands

To speak when words are needed

To share the silence when they are not

To agree to disagree on the red velvet cake

And to live within the warmth of your heart

And always call it home

I vow to fiercely love you

In all your forms, now and forever

I promise to never forget that

This is a once-in-a-lifetime love

And to always know in the deepest part of my soul

That no matter what challenges might carry us apart

That we will always find the way back to each other

Reckless thought

I know. I’ve been treated so badly for my entire life. My presence in this circle was not appreciated. I can feel that. I can bear the harsh words I can bear the heartbreaking things I’ve to fucking listen to. Eventhough this will never turns okay, I think I can survive the fact that I can please no one. Sometimes I’m expressing this to myself so that I know where I belonged to. I don’t live to please people. I don’t live to please each fucking one of you. I did good things and I did what you guys asked but ended up living alone in a world I created to isolate myself. Maybe eventually everything’s gonna be okay. I hope so. I fucking hope so.